Occasional insomnia has a very odd effect on me. About once a month I find that my mind goes into overdrive as I try and fall asleep and the distance from mattress to dreams inflates from a typical 20 minutes to a mind-numbing 4+ hours. While the immediate result of these bouts with sleeplessness is Zombie D, the secondary result is a complicated fear of sleep.
After such a night of sleep struggles, I find that I start fearing the sleep process. I don’t want to have to deal with insomnia so I stay up to the point where sleep is all but guaranteed. Let’s call it planned insomnia. It’s 10pm, it’s bedtime, and I’m exhausted but i know I’ll have an easier time falling asleep if I wait until after midnight. On one hand, I’m improving my ‘falling asleep’ efficiency while also getting an extra 2+ hours of productive guitar practice or such. But, obviously I experience a far more debilitating and sustained exhaustion.
Has anyone dealt with this odd fear of sleep symptom? I’d be very interested in learning what techniques you used to conquer it. Do any of the psychology-smart readers have valuable input into why I have adopted this ridiculous avoidance strategy?